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"please stay back"......
The past still full of mysteries....things that seemed so right at 'that' moment don't seem all that right now.
Standing in front of the mirror...ah mirror...mirror is such a wonderful creation...it lets you see the past...to the very footsteps leading to where you are now..
Things from a world so perfect cannot be compared to what he is seeing in the mirror. The disheveled state of his hair, though he did not get up from the bed now, the tear filled eyes, gave him a more hazy picture of himself and his past. Not that it lied. Maybe this is how he should be seeing this. the light sound of music in the background only accentuating his tears rather than pacify him....he felt sorry for himself....halfway into the quicksand...and now he wants to get out...
"please stay back"....
as these words left his dry lips, i bet even his ears could not interpret it. "What's the point". It's all over now. Sometimes everything is all wrong and nothing can save the ship. It has to go.
"please stay back"......
The past has gone. He wishes that the present lasts for an eternity. But time is slipping away. He took comfort in the thought that at least the misery will not be long..ah...what a maniac!... If there was no gravity, he could have escaped all this. Damn.. 3 feet is all..he is back on earth in a moment.
The plots in his mind come back to haunt him.. maybe he should have not...or rather in a diff way..."forget it!..i can see it in the reflection, i don't need anyone to point out"....
"please come back"....
Time waits for no one....The future is just a moment away! and hoping time stays back...arggg...is something a fool would not hope...but,
"please stay back"...
Look beyond the mirror...there might be a window...a window..that will show you things that you missed...things that you came across....things that rattled you..things that helped you...OBSERVE...look at all the others...learn...take comfort...go on....

Carnival

Round the corner, as they say. Things can change in an instant, just a moment. from good to bad, bad to good. But something missing is the change from bad to worse.
Dim light contrasting the fully decorated environment. Reminiscent of the past glory. It was a mystery as to why it was still here. Did anyone notice it? No. Is there anyone who cared? You must be kiddin! No. Living in the past appears so fruitful. Yet so deceiving. With the biting wind. So many people outside yet no one. An occasional smile. Billy Joel sings along "Yes, they're sharing a drink they call loneliness, But it's better than drinking alone ".
You wait for the corner. the ever so evasive corner. Its not all that bad. It’s only gonna get worse. Day after day. You just sit there, and wait, and wait for the corner. You have gone past so many times. You know it's not there. But you still wait for it. Same things you see. You wonder, are you being watched? You only hope there is someone else traveling in the same path as you are. The path that does not lead anywhere. sense of roundness to it. Remind of the past so very often. Nothing has changed. But very small details that are like sugar to a cup of coffee.
It just takes a moment. To go round the corner. Maybe next time.

55 Words

After the rambling, Rize picks up from here

The message had been clear....Last train...Black attire....Brown briefcase....Somehow he failed his tormentors....This was his last task...supposedly...He feared the worst...he had 20 hours before time runs out...going back without the briefcase meant doom..for him.. and certain death, for her...He searched for his car keys..

Now its the turn of El Furibundo...The curse is forwarded!..

Continuance...

I can hear someone blow their horn..But it sounds so far away.....I, for once seemed to ignore the music....I try to see who it is... But I don’t see the source....Looks like it was meant to be ignored.....I continue...I can hear it again...This time a little louder....The mirror playing tricks on me? I have to look back. and ....

Does he want the same thing as I want?..Can he see what I’m trying......there seems to be no way he can pull it off..?I am equiped..Music is pretty powerful.. My adrenalin is my music...was I over confident? NO....

Unforeseen forces trying to put me off track....seems that the wind will blow my head off if it were a little more fierce......should I go? Shouldn’t I? What was I thinking.....I don’t see him anymore....I hate reflections..of self or others...They tell you what you cannot see..Things that you would not like to see...that dark side......things that reflect...Now it is again playing tricks on me..or is it?...I have to turn back...I had to be sure that I was the only one..He was not behind me..Infact he had gained on me and was right alongside .. Almost intimidating...I have no fear...I step on it...I cut across the seemingly impossible breeze.....He follows..We pass that last obstacle on our way....Nothing can stop me now..For now it was impossible to resist..and he was the motivation for me to reach speeds that i would never have even attempted..but sanity was a thing of the past..The beats are getting faster...My hand tries to keep in touch...where is he? he is not ahead of me..ah! Not bad...

this wind...argh!...I would have loved this breeze to blow onto my face with all its fury on any other day....But not now......I just feel the bitterness...my hands seem to tremble...I did not want him to see it..It's psyching me out.. It's slowing me down..But it's not that bad...it's slowing him too..

The seemingly clear path is filled with obstacles..Life is so much different when you are faster than the rest.. Things that you would never notice now are more important...normally its supposed to be the other way around.....you seem to go through life observing very less because you never make an attempt...but with the right message...you will start noticing...Now I realize that I should have observed when I had the time to observe...OBSERVE...look for subtle changes in the environment...you can keep in touch with god..

He has edged past me...Just a few corners and we have to stop...my brain has stopped functioning...Go GO Go...the music is enchanting...i am in its spell....I cant stop..i cant give up...I cant be left behind....Go Go Go....we have almost reached the end... got to stop...stop the damn music...I hope my brain takes over....it has observed all the things that i have never seen before..

One last look ahead...is there an opening?.. yes..but, he cannot see it... I slow down...I look at him...he is slowing too..I know I can make it through... I can feel it..In just a second I through...I look back..no signs..All around..it was a different story! ...It was great...rejuvenating actually… a bitter pill.....

hmmmmm

'my life is brilliant...my love is pure...i saw an angel...of that i am sure........you're beautiful..you're beautiful..' ..... i just open my eyes...see through the window...i still have half way to go....dunno what i wanted to see outside.... did not realize i was awake..looked around to see if there were any familiar faces...people turning left and then right..back again..like a boat in the stormy sea...trying to catch some sleep...life is crazy..the sun did not fade away as yet... trying to remind us that there was still some sand that has to pass to the other side ...but the hint was never taken..it's over for us and we are done with it...is it the same the other way?... well that was a question not many seemed to answer for the simple reason that they never saw the transition... when they awoke... Darkness had worked its magic.. and no one complained.. it was over...from both sides......
'You're beautiful..... You're beautiful.....You're beautiful, it's true......'

blastoff!!

ok. I am finally writing something. For my BLOG! Why am i so excited about this whole thing. I have been thinking about the name for this blog for quite some time. With more than a little help from my friends,especially Du and Zon, i could zero in on this one. Now when it's time to write something here, my mind has gone grazing. Happens all the time!
Now what to expect in my blog.You can expect........Or you will be reading........................... ........................................... Timeout!!!
Damn! This thing takes a lot more time than what i anticipated. Bascially i do not know what i am going to pen down. So no preset mindset please. Be prepared to be taken to the brink of sanity (maybe over to the other side ). :D
This is all i can think of now. Ah! one entry in the blog! Finally.
cheers.