Friday, April 27, 2007

dazed..

The alarm goes off. Yet another day. The room is so dark. ah..this is the daily routine...A bird..it flies so gracefully in the sky. A group of birds. a perfect orchestra. They can change
direction when they wish. But they fly anywhere that they want never sticking to a definitive
path. Never holding on to any direction. All's well they say. As long as they get food and they
reach their destination. I always wonder. Why cant we do this. Why are we afraid of the Change.
Why are we still holding our line even though it seems utterly hopeless. Why are we not as free in mind as the birds. "free as the birds"!
I keep thinking, speaking to myself, practice the lines. Over and over again. But the day never
comes. it keeps evading me! I really dont wanna think. The more you think theIts just one bumpy
ride after another.. But we all reach where we wanna go.. but it really not the lovely journey you have been
imagining..'Perseverance is the key my friend!' .. haha...thats too funny...
Looking out of a window at anytime...a vendor on the street smiles.. the small girl teasing her
dog is all smiles..the mother who is trying to tame her ever so vibrant kid..in between all the
irritation on her face..she smiles...the kid smiles...the frown is turing into a smile...but its
like a mask..a shroud on a tearful person...
Time to go.. this may not be there tommorrow... I may not be here to see it.. 'Life's short..enjoy
it' ..haha..ur getting funnier by the moment.. i should appreciate ur humour..its almost like u
can predict whats gonna happen...argg..this alarm does not give up.. ah, i remember, Its called
Perseverance..always keeps reminding me..time's up dude!.. u better be prepared..i wish i can shut of all the things.. Wanna get into This helium balloon.. and fly away...I just need some colours to paint my world..all kinds of colours..black..grey...but its too expensive..can i afford it?
I cant feel my feet..But as i look behind me..I have left my foot prints in the sand..its still there... 'Yeah..I was there'. . 'U can definetely go ahead and do better'... i swear u should be a script write of a comedy movie.. haha...ur too funny... i envy u..

I can see it. I can hear it. The storm is getting closer. I am sure of this. am I prepared?

13 comments:

TheGreatOne said...

reading this blog was like a roller-coaster ride!!
ok..am gonna xplain u why twas so...

see, when i finished the first 2 paras, i felt yes, this is the first time Pedda ain't writing smthin bafflingly abstract, this makes sense, and go ahead with the next para where u talk about 'smiles' and the 'moving ahead of frowns', i feel now that maybe u will draw a connection of the 2 moods ahead...but no...am wrong..there is a enigmatic twist in plot..and abstractness is glorified!!! :p
Finally, when i look for a conclusion, i find 'divine' 'abstractness', only concept that feeds my mind properly is 'perseverence'..rest luk like a bronze T&H watch on the arms of Achilles as he loads his Kaleshnikov to shoot Hector!! :):) :p

As i say, good write man...sorry for the irritatingly long comment!! :):)

Rize said...

haha...man ur funny :P

thanks! as usual its crap..but 'enigmatically glorified Kaleshnikov ' crap! :)

Stargazer said...

Perseverance is the key. Ironically, it is also the cage.
It leads to the thought that things could be better.
It leads to the small spark that that keeps you going when the rest wants to pull you down.
It leads to hope.
It leads to dreams.
It leads to smiles.
:-)
Welcome back.

TheGreatOne said...

@Adi...kewl..real sensible stuff i say!! :)

Sketcher said...

Your posts give me the feeling that you have something like a split personality,. You mimic your two minds in the same post! It wanders, from thought to thought, almost like two seperate tracks. But still, has an essence, a motive.

Rize said...

@adu: ya thanks...feels good to write again!! and ya ur absolutely rite!! how can u come with lines like these!! :)

@sketcher: i dint find a motive :D...but seriously..i think everyone thinks in two different ways...one ends up following one thought meanwhile abandoning the other.. and to make that decision its almost impossible! It takes a lot of time :)

Sketcher said...

For you... i can bet my life to say that you take for ever to decide :D

Rize said...

@sketcher
ok..i agree...wont argue with u on this!! (Hey dint i decide quickly that u were rite? :D )

'Smee! said...

Ummhmmmm...

Rize said...

@'Smee!'
Err...ummmmm?!?!?! wat am i supposed to interpret!!

'Smee! said...

I agree on that spilt personality thing :)

Anonymous said...

hmm..well i am a bit lost on what ur thoughts were:P.First there was something abt change and then there was a lot of mocking abt the general cliched dialogues....while both made sense,i didnt get the connection btw them...anyways would like to say something abt change...I guess anything new is always exciting and yet scary.Thats why we are reluctant to change and accept changes coz it removes us from the familiar and plunges us into the unknown....hmm would definitely like to discuss with u on the sec part of ur post sometime:)

Rize said...

@Rashmi:
Thanks for leaving a comment! Well we could talk it up :)
Just to add a point...everything keeps changing..change is inevitable.everyone changes over time..for good...for bad..or just that they had to change...but if we continue to love a changed person..then there is nothing like it!