random coming back to life post kinda

Perception. How it changes. Just a teeny weeny bit of information, changes the way you think about a person or a situation. I missed a lot of this information I guess, that's why growing up is fun!
Taking it with a pinch of salt, I am used to it as well. Growing up is not as fun any more.
Its been a long time since I saw a good Indian movie. More so because I have not given any movies a chance. I finally watched this Movie. Its a movie I dreaded watching for some reasons that wont be discussed here. Actually I can, but it will put you to sleep, now we don't want that do we? I still have lots of stuff below that will put you to sleep in any case :P. I did watch it today though and loved it.  Some of my friends had to listen to this song on a loop for over 15 times when I was drunk (And they did listen to it every time I played it during the crazy loop cycle :)) Those were fun times! Oh btw, if you drink beer, miller lite is the worst beer. The best one is Blue moon , just fyi
Its been a long time since I posted anything here. I did visit and write a few posts but haven't published any of them. Must be my poor grammar , but who cares!
Whats new? 'Nothing much, just the usual stuff' (That's the software engineer in me). Well I would like to say a lot has been happening, but the fact is there is not much happening.
I am the fittest I have ever been, never have drunk as many as beers in one sitting (Though most of it alone but trust me its not  that sad), treasured all the old times like never before which I did not care about much at that time ( the all knowing knowledge which comes with grey hairs I guess).
Its been a couple of years since I last visited home,. I am keen to go and visit my folks, but also nervous at the same time. Why, I am pretty sure why but you guessed it, it won't be explained here :P
I started playing tennis and I love it. Its as if I was born to play it ( though I lose every game I play :D).
What else, hmmmm,. I understand photography better than ever before, I am learning about new techniques and also things that I had never used before. I thought I had learned all I could from my current camera and was ready for an upgrade. Just a lazy Sunday proved me otherwise(I went through all the buttons and the manual). I still have a long way to go before I can upgrade to something better. Oh, I just learned how to use the poor man's macro lens without needing to invest in an expensive macro lens. I am excited to go try it out!
I love living alone. The last year has been great in instilling in me the responsibilities of managing the house on my own (I live by myself). I got a few indoor plants to 'spice' up my apartment. Its pretty cool to get dirty with mud , been a while I did some form of gardening (the last time I did something was at my house when I was in high school, we moved since and did not have a good amount of space to do any meaningful gardening)
I kind of hate it when people use '...' at the end of a sentance.
I got rid of all my music on my phone, and slowly started getting some new stuff.
I also learnt that distance is not a big factor in any relationship, no matter what the relationship is. Trust is.
That's it from me, thanks for reading! Here's a little sing to get you going!

I Miss this

Hope this helps. U2 concert at Boston  - 9/20/2009 - Stuck in a moment

Well, finally I have moved to stay on my own. It took some time coming. I would have moved a few months back under different circumstances, and definitely not alone. But atleast something worked this year.
I have not been here long enough to say whether this is a good or bad decision. But, well it cant get any worse!
The last couple of weeks is roughly the busiest I have been in the last few years. Moving, helping my previous roommate shop for his wedding, and obviously working. I have hardly been at home to unpack.
I always thought I did not accumulate a lot of stuff. But I did have a lot of baggage that traveled with me here to my new place.
Its been exactly one year since my last trip back home. Things were very different then. It would have sucked to stay here. I am glad a few friends are sort of keeping me in their plans. Staying alone and not having anyone to meet other than people you meet at the work place is very unhealthy. Sometimes that's how it is I guess.

- I have traveled alone more often this year than the last few years. Today is my second long lonely drive this summer. I can't call it lonely though, solitude with a lot of music is the right 'word' for it.  I can't call it summer though, its already pretty chilly and the temperature has dropped considerable in just one night. Maybe a bad pick for the drive up to the mountains, but I can't wait any longer, this weekend will probably be the last weekend before all the colors go away.
- A visit to the dentist and some stern words is what took me to brushing my teeth twice a day ( and to start floss). I have never flossed before, so its a pretty weird experience. Its not advisable to do it in front of the mirror though, my hands lose all co-ordination. The electric toothbrush is a nice touch after the dentist's visit.
- For the first time in my life, I actually noticed migratory birds flying south (Maybe I did notice it earlier, but I am making a big deal out of it now, coz it was amazing!). Yeah, I had my compass out and it all made sense to me, finally.
- I do regret a lot of things that happened this year, I wish they had turned out in a different way. I made a  huge mistake.

Socially awkward penguin really cracks me up (It might have to do that I relate to a lot of things on it, and its nice to see others in the same pond).

Oh and this is the earworm for the day for me!

-A few years ago a friend of mine had bought a new camera. He wanted to return it because it had too much 'noise' for pictures taken at higher ISO's. I thought at that time, the clicking noise was too much. Ah, I am so embarrassed when I think of it now.

 During my undergrad, we sang Shaggy's 'Angel' at class. I remember, one of my friend 'loki' used to wonder why was the word 'shorty' was used in the song.We thought it was so funny, that we laughed hysterically.

The first time I tried calling a mobile number outside karnataka, I did not know how to dial it. I thought adding a '0' before the number was for one specific state and it was different for different states. I had actually sent out an sms to a few friends to find out what to do, and I still remember 'Furi' sent me that same sms years later 'lol'ing it.

 I used to think the words 'Little Darling' in the song 'here comes the sun' by Beatles was actually 'dilly dolling'.

I once mistook the mustang running horse emblem to be the prancing horse of Ferrari, that pretty rookie.

 It feels like several decades have passed between then and now...

To reach out would be madness;
To stay away would be madness;
there seems to be no common ground...
For now, I take comfort with Donovan!

desmond and molly. You are the envy of everyone

Its been a long time since I have listened to music for more than 10 hours a day. I used to listen to it for over 3 hours during my bus journey to and fro from my previous work place. This keeps me from seeking company during times when I really need it.
Its been long since I have had sleep less nights for more than a couple of weeks. I am so tired, but I can't get any sleep. I want to blame it on the solitaire game on my phone. Though the only thing that rings in regularity is my alarm, which I simply turn it off on account of playing solitaire.

I have this sudden rush to just take my bike and ride down to Bellandur lake and listen to Aerosmith ( I do boast of having a big collection of 'good' music). It just brings back memories listening to my music player at dusk just watching people making their way back home, watching the flights kiss good bye to the airport (and obviously the slightly filthy smell in the air and the weeds covering most part of the lake, but I can live with it). Those times were the best. All I can do now is just look back and envy my past.

Confidence and sanity go hand in hand. It rarely happens that one start losing one's mind and hence starts losing confidence. I feel its the other way round.When confidence seems always 'just' out of reach and slowly but certainly slipping away, the mind always follows suit. Thats when you know you may not be able to make it on your own. SomeMost times you wonderhope if everything thats happening/happened is just the delusion in your mind of the most vicious soul ever seen or may be its just the mirror. You think you can snap out of it any time, maybe right NOW. So many 'NOW's have passed and nothings changed ...

ah well, its just another day. Sunny and bright. But i would prefer the gloomy and dark winter days. I wish it were winter, the darkness sets in early, not many people outside, the cold breeze, i guess its just me.

"So, from all of us at Aerosmith
To all of you out there, wherever you are.
Remember- the light at the end of the tunnel
May be you. Goodnight!"


- lines from Amazing by Aerosmith


Edit:
Exactly 4 years since Aerosmith concert

I don't remember the colour of your eyes. I am sorry I am not so attentive. I know I disappointed you, I am very disappointed about myself...

arggg! he smells so bad. How can people spend one of the most important and inevitable event in their life in his presence? Well, the stronger his smell, the faster you will get used to it. It will probably escape your mind after that.

Nothing much to say other than today is the 6th of May and its been exactly 4 weeks and counting.

Found this on the back of a mug here. Everything seems to be imported from china (Apparently including homes too!)

I never thought i would go back to listening this.  

Things change so quickly, and in a few weeks your life changes completely. All that you believed turns out to be fake, you just can't fight it anymore. You just go with the flow, without fighting to change the (lonely)direction your life taking. It was too difficult to fight over things when you are the only one to fight for it at the end...

This is something I read when I am at a low point in my life. Its just makes me feel like I am not the only one and never ever fails in making me feel better as I complete reading it! :)

"Fog horn" by "Ray Bradbury"

I used to think that music groups performing live, sing songs in a slightly different way only to deter people recording the songs from selling them as originals! I think it was furi who laughed his ass off when he heard that!

Here's one song live from Grammy award ceremony. Obviously its different from the original, but I have learnt to  love the emotion and intensity of the songs performed live. This song is one my favorites.