Its been a long time since I have listened to music for more than 10 hours a day. I used to listen to it for over 3 hours during my bus journey to and fro from my previous work place. This keeps me from seeking company during times when I really need it.
Its been long since I have had sleep less nights for more than a couple of weeks. I am so tired, but I can't get any sleep. I want to blame it on the solitaire game on my phone. Though the only thing that rings in regularity is my alarm, which I simply turn it off on account of playing solitaire.

I have this sudden rush to just take my bike and ride down to Bellandur lake and listen to Aerosmith ( I do boast of having a big collection of 'good' music). It just brings back memories listening to my music player at dusk just watching people making their way back home, watching the flights kiss good bye to the airport (and obviously the slightly filthy smell in the air and the weeds covering most part of the lake, but I can live with it). Those times were the best. All I can do now is just look back and envy my past.

Confidence and sanity go hand in hand. It rarely happens that one start losing one's mind and hence starts losing confidence. I feel its the other way round.When confidence seems always 'just' out of reach and slowly but certainly slipping away, the mind always follows suit. Thats when you know you may not be able to make it on your own. SomeMost times you wonderhope if everything thats happening/happened is just the delusion in your mind of the most vicious soul ever seen or may be its just the mirror. You think you can snap out of it any time, maybe right NOW. So many 'NOW's have passed and nothings changed ...

ah well, its just another day. Sunny and bright. But i would prefer the gloomy and dark winter days. I wish it were winter, the darkness sets in early, not many people outside, the cold breeze, i guess its just me.

"So, from all of us at Aerosmith
To all of you out there, wherever you are.
Remember- the light at the end of the tunnel
May be you. Goodnight!"


- lines from Amazing by Aerosmith


Edit:
Exactly 4 years since Aerosmith concert