Well, finally I have moved to stay on my own. It took some time coming. I would have moved a few months back under different circumstances, and definitely not alone. But atleast something worked this year.
I have not been here long enough to say whether this is a good or bad decision. But, well it cant get any worse!
The last couple of weeks is roughly the busiest I have been in the last few years. Moving, helping my previous roommate shop for his wedding, and obviously working. I have hardly been at home to unpack.
I always thought I did not accumulate a lot of stuff. But I did have a lot of baggage that traveled with me here to my new place.
Its been exactly one year since my last trip back home. Things were very different then. It would have sucked to stay here. I am glad a few friends are sort of keeping me in their plans. Staying alone and not having anyone to meet other than people you meet at the work place is very unhealthy. Sometimes that's how it is I guess.

- I have traveled alone more often this year than the last few years. Today is my second long lonely drive this summer. I can't call it lonely though, solitude with a lot of music is the right 'word' for it.  I can't call it summer though, its already pretty chilly and the temperature has dropped considerable in just one night. Maybe a bad pick for the drive up to the mountains, but I can't wait any longer, this weekend will probably be the last weekend before all the colors go away.
- A visit to the dentist and some stern words is what took me to brushing my teeth twice a day ( and to start floss). I have never flossed before, so its a pretty weird experience. Its not advisable to do it in front of the mirror though, my hands lose all co-ordination. The electric toothbrush is a nice touch after the dentist's visit.
- For the first time in my life, I actually noticed migratory birds flying south (Maybe I did notice it earlier, but I am making a big deal out of it now, coz it was amazing!). Yeah, I had my compass out and it all made sense to me, finally.
- I do regret a lot of things that happened this year, I wish they had turned out in a different way. I made a  huge mistake.

Socially awkward penguin really cracks me up (It might have to do that I relate to a lot of things on it, and its nice to see others in the same pond).

Oh and this is the earworm for the day for me!

-A few years ago a friend of mine had bought a new camera. He wanted to return it because it had too much 'noise' for pictures taken at higher ISO's. I thought at that time, the clicking noise was too much. Ah, I am so embarrassed when I think of it now.

 During my undergrad, we sang Shaggy's 'Angel' at class. I remember, one of my friend 'loki' used to wonder why was the word 'shorty' was used in the song.We thought it was so funny, that we laughed hysterically.

The first time I tried calling a mobile number outside karnataka, I did not know how to dial it. I thought adding a '0' before the number was for one specific state and it was different for different states. I had actually sent out an sms to a few friends to find out what to do, and I still remember 'Furi' sent me that same sms years later 'lol'ing it.

 I used to think the words 'Little Darling' in the song 'here comes the sun' by Beatles was actually 'dilly dolling'.

I once mistook the mustang running horse emblem to be the prancing horse of Ferrari, that pretty rookie.

 It feels like several decades have passed between then and now...

To reach out would be madness;
To stay away would be madness;
there seems to be no common ground...
For now, I take comfort with Donovan!

desmond and molly. You are the envy of everyone

Its been a long time since I have listened to music for more than 10 hours a day. I used to listen to it for over 3 hours during my bus journey to and fro from my previous work place. This keeps me from seeking company during times when I really need it.
Its been long since I have had sleep less nights for more than a couple of weeks. I am so tired, but I can't get any sleep. I want to blame it on the solitaire game on my phone. Though the only thing that rings in regularity is my alarm, which I simply turn it off on account of playing solitaire.

I have this sudden rush to just take my bike and ride down to Bellandur lake and listen to Aerosmith ( I do boast of having a big collection of 'good' music). It just brings back memories listening to my music player at dusk just watching people making their way back home, watching the flights kiss good bye to the airport (and obviously the slightly filthy smell in the air and the weeds covering most part of the lake, but I can live with it). Those times were the best. All I can do now is just look back and envy my past.

Confidence and sanity go hand in hand. It rarely happens that one start losing one's mind and hence starts losing confidence. I feel its the other way round.When confidence seems always 'just' out of reach and slowly but certainly slipping away, the mind always follows suit. Thats when you know you may not be able to make it on your own. SomeMost times you wonderhope if everything thats happening/happened is just the delusion in your mind of the most vicious soul ever seen or may be its just the mirror. You think you can snap out of it any time, maybe right NOW. So many 'NOW's have passed and nothings changed ...

ah well, its just another day. Sunny and bright. But i would prefer the gloomy and dark winter days. I wish it were winter, the darkness sets in early, not many people outside, the cold breeze, i guess its just me.

"So, from all of us at Aerosmith
To all of you out there, wherever you are.
Remember- the light at the end of the tunnel
May be you. Goodnight!"


- lines from Amazing by Aerosmith


Edit:
Exactly 4 years since Aerosmith concert

I don't remember the colour of your eyes. I am sorry I am not so attentive. I know I disappointed you, I am very disappointed about myself...

arggg! he smells so bad. How can people spend one of the most important and inevitable event in their life in his presence? Well, the stronger his smell, the faster you will get used to it. It will probably escape your mind after that.

Nothing much to say other than today is the 6th of May and its been exactly 4 weeks and counting.

Found this on the back of a mug here. Everything seems to be imported from china (Apparently including homes too!)

I never thought i would go back to listening this.  

Things change so quickly, and in a few weeks your life changes completely. All that you believed turns out to be fake, you just can't fight it anymore. You just go with the flow, without fighting to change the (lonely)direction your life taking. It was too difficult to fight over things when you are the only one to fight for it at the end...

This is something I read when I am at a low point in my life. Its just makes me feel like I am not the only one and never ever fails in making me feel better as I complete reading it! :)

"Fog horn" by "Ray Bradbury"

I used to think that music groups performing live, sing songs in a slightly different way only to deter people recording the songs from selling them as originals! I think it was furi who laughed his ass off when he heard that!

Here's one song live from Grammy award ceremony. Obviously its different from the original, but I have learnt to  love the emotion and intensity of the songs performed live. This song is one my favorites.

 I gave my car for service. Requested a loaner car so that I can get to office and back while my car was getting fixed. Well, this is what I got as a loaner car! :D

new year blues

Its 2011.(Ya its arrived pretty stealthily and I dont even feel like a year has passed, though I get a jolt every time I write the date).
Well, this post is mostly about how lucky I am not to be a hospital(OK, I may be exaggerating, but i was indeed lucky not to spend new years day calling up my insurance agents and stuff)
#1: We were driving back from atlanta downtown after new year celebrations. On the highway, another car in front of me(on the next lane) swerved to my lane without an indicator signal. The nose of my car was very very close to the back of that car. Well, this was around 1 AM, and it freaked the shit out of me(Not sure why this affected me so much, there are other incidents of similar nature that I have encountered in the past that I just let go in my mind). Well, I honked (maybe for the 3rd or 4th time ever in the last couple of years), danger averted. All is well.

#2 Travelling on the freeway when it was raining pretty hard. Maybe around 4 in the afternoon. moved over to a lane somewhere in the middle, kept at it for some time. All of a sudden, the car next to me, accelerated, and the result, was a huge amount of water got splashed onto my windscreen. Well, it looks to be something that happens quite frequently in rainy conditions, but this was extra 'special' because I was blinded for close to 5 seconds. Well, it did not turn disastrous for two reasons; The stretch on the freeway where this happened was straight as an arrow, and I did not do something stupid like brake or move around.

Somehow these two incidents on the 1st Jan sort of shook me badly. But I guess i should count myself lucky rather than think of it in a bad way...